late night rambles part 6 

please forgive me,
when i actually feel things
they are pretty intense.
so much so i lock everything in
back to where it was all again.
these feelings are like stolen goods.
someone got their hands on them
and didn’t realize how valuable and fragile they are.
trying to sell them on the cheap.
but it’s not your fault,
i allowed myself to be put in situations
where my feelings are always on the defense.
because i never can just like someone
i desire that deep connection shit
and sometimes that just backfires.
i end up halfway falling in love with someone
before i really should
and before it ever becomes anything.
so please forgive me,
my feelings just are a little too intense.
i, don’t even know what to do with them,
but write.

(Source: allpoetry.com)